Yes, you have to take gambles in life.
After a hiatus of a few months, I've returned to the motorcycle garage part time, skills are a little rusty, but it's all still there. While I have been promised a reference from the guy, I am holding off slightly until I become more proficient with electronics, then I can say I am more adept within electronics.
I've spent alot of the last year in a bit of a weird zone, thoughts running round my head like "you can't do this, or that" Thoughts such as "there is no future" alot of people my age now are getting a bit like this in Britain. I can even see this looking back on this thread, its amazing to have a record of my past thoughts. It feels almost narcissistic even, but I just use it for what it is and perhaps my story can resonate with other young people.
People are starting to talk about me at work, my friends and family and they say "it's a tragedy that such an intelligent, skilled guy, is still spending half his week at a supermarket". A cooler went down last week, I spoke to the technician as I filled the milk fridge, his reaction "

how do you know about Glycol and cooling systems?" (I'm just a supermarket guy) hahahah,

Nowadays I'm more positive, looking for opportunities. The advent of 3d printing, has really inspired me as well as recent times with friends and their bikes, four stroke and two stroke. I've started to feel that I am not really a fan of circuit racing, but more of enduro, adventuring, street riding or even road racing. My parents are going through difficulties after a long marriage that has recently turned sour, this has added to the fire of life. I've got a lot of books from my dad, electrical engineering, foundry work etc, all very valuable.
I've had a shift mentally, that has helped me with my martial arts as well. To try new things and not fall into habits, to go further.
I'm off to Brazil in a couple of months, hopefully gonna see bikes there, some alcohol engines also, very excited. Also going to an off-road event for the public to try out brand new models from manufacturers, two strokes are there, gasgas etc. Should be amazing fun.
In short I feel inspired again and my heads in the right place.